Hopes, Fears and Aspirations.

Hopes, fears or aspirations.. which one to begin with! To be fair, they all aptly roll into each other some how so, head first it is.. My biggest fear, obviously and like many others is that I finish my 3 year degree and do nothing with it, so easily done, but in truth I have been working full time the entire 3 years, bustin' my ass so that im not a poor student and that I have a business nest egg to propel me out into the wide world in good sted. No part of me is foolish enough to think it will be easy, so, my biggest fear is just going to be my biggest driving force moving forward. Being a slightly more 'mature' student was once my biggest fear; has now I think become my biggest strength and ally. In truth 'Fear' is a very small part of what I'm feeling upon leaving.

Coming into a degree course, my biggest goal was not the grade, although my pride wants that, it was to come away with a portfolio of work that im very proud of, this has always been my big hope and remains so long after im finished with the education side of my journey, you never stop learning so I will never stop adding to and updating my portfolio, its the greatest tool I have. Second maybe only to the people I have met along the way, I not only hope to remain in contact  with fellow students and tutors long after im left, I hope to work with them, share a studio, always have somebody there to drive you on, critique your work and mostly kick you into gear, as I sure as shit will for them. I do not fear losing contact with certain people, this will happen. I know that of a select few people I have met along my journey, I will stay in contact with, as friends, colleagues, business partners?? I digress!

I aspire to become just like the people I have been looking up to along my 3 years, to become one of the illustration success stories that Jo, Ian and Gary tell to future students for years to come, as they have done for us. I would love for a student to one day come to me for advice or even an interview for there blog, that in my head would be like a defining moment that said I had taken a massive step to become what I've set out to be. Pass down my experiences and knowledge, share stories and just basically help and support whoever will listen.
Not everything I aspire to is selfless and in quest of helping others, a huge part of me will become very selfish when I leave college I won't lie, first and foremost; I will become an illustrator, regardless of others opinions, doubts and competition. I'm going to sell my work.. sell more of my work, heck, sell ALL of my work. 

Be an illustrator.